This weekend I went to visit my inlaws for thanksgiving, and my father in law mentioned that he knows I must be pretty busy because when I'm really busy at work I hardly ever update my blog. Well that's true, but there's another reason I haven't been updating much lately, and that is because the thing that has been preoccupying most of my thoughts (and a lot of my time) was not something I was sure I wanted to share here. So instead I've been blogging about it at my other private blog. But now I've decided I am ready to talk about that stuff here. So what I've decided I'm going to do is take my other blog posts that I've been writing for the past few months in my other blog and re-post them here, and slowly release them over the next few weeks until we catch up with the present day.
The thing I haven't wanted to talk about is that B and I have been trying to get pregnant, and that in July I was diagnosed with Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) and had to make an enormous amount of lifestyle changes in order to improve my chances of getting pregnant.
For some brief history: When B and I first got married in 2009 I went off birth control right away with the intent of starting to try getting pregnant, so that we could try to aim to have the child while I was finishing up my dissertation. I stopped using birth control in May and had a period then. Then I didn't have another one until July. Then I didn't have another one until October. At around October I took a pregnancy test and felt very relieved when it showed up negative, since it was getting to the point where I would be graduating in June, giving birth in July and starting a new job in August the next year. After that we had to stop trying for a while, becasue I would be starting a new job and you don't get maternity leave your first year on a new job. I figured the irregular periods were due to withdrawel from birth control, and besides my periods had never been very regular as a teenager- I used to get them every 5-7 weeks, and I took many a pregnancy test in college (before I was on birth control) as a result. Then I went on birth control when I was around 20 and have been on it with the exception of a few months here or there ever since.
So we stopped trying in October 2009, and I moved to my new job in July 2010. At my job I go up for review and reappointment in my third year (this year) and then I get a guaranteed paid research leave for one semester in my fourth year (next year). That seemed like a perfect time to plan a pregnancy around- I will have a paid semester off where I can work from home and have no teaching or service responsibilities and then could theoretically go on "Maternity leave" the next semester which in my school means I would teach 1 class instead of 3 and not do service (we get 3 months paid leave vs. the 4 month semester). And I would use the research leave as actual maternity leave and the maternity leave to make up for that research time. And I can take the research leave either Fall 2013 or Spring 2014 so that gave/gives us a nice long window of time.
So in December of last year I went off birth control again to give my body a nice long time to get rid of all those hormones and figure itself out before we started trying over the summer. And I got a period in December, and then in February, and then in April, and then not again...and then it was July and I still hadn't gotten my period and I wasn't pregnant. And that's where these blog posts pick up. So here are a couple from the day before and the day I found out I had PCOS. Stay tuned for more.
Originally posted July 19th 2012:
I also haven't gotten my period in 103 days, wtf! And I'm not
pregnant! Clearly something is fucked. Anyway I made an appointment with
the lady parts doctor for tomorrow, but I'm trying not to freak out too
bad- my coworker had the same thing happen to her like 20 years ago and
they gave her some pills to regulate her hormones and she got pregnant
like 2 months later, so I'm not too worried. I wanted to wait until I
got my period again to make an appointment (So I wouldn't be getting my
period at the appointment) but this is fucking ridiculous, so I just
went and made the appointment.
Originally posted July 20th 2012:
Welp, the doctor is pretty sure I have Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome
(PCOS) which is what I thought I might have. She also is testing a bunch
of other things like my thyroid which I'll get the result of next week.
In the meanwhile she gave me some pills to start up my period again,
and Clomid for once it starts to keep it running. Kinda scared about the
clomid part cause it can double your chance of getting twins but I
guess I'd rather have twins than no babies! Then if I don't get pregnant
after 2 months on clomid I'm going to go back for another appointment. At that point B would probably have to get tested too.
gave me a long lecture on being fat that made me feel like a loser. :(
She was basically like "the pills arn't guaranteed to work and the best
way to increase your chance of getting pregnant is losing weight" and
then told me I have to exercise for half an hour of intense exercise
every day, and can't eat any carbohydrates anymore and made all these
snarky comments about putting the bread down. What am I going to eat?
I'm already lactose intolerant and have high cholesterol, I seriously
can't win. :( I'm guessing lots of chicken and salads.
all a bummer of a day. At least I have some pills to try to help now,
but I was afraid I had PCOS and hearing that it probably is what I have
really really sucked.